| Location | Hemsworth - Kinsley |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 20/10/2007 |
| Date of Death | 20/10/2007 |
| Visitors | 2,378 since 08/10/2008 |
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this is my story!! it all started when i was 27 weeks pregnant life was good baby growing doing all the usual things then i started bleeding in a panic i was rushed to hospital to find that he was ok his heart was beating he was fine panic over or so i thought then at 32 weeks the same thing happened i started bleeding again this was it i thought hes got to be dead but my special boy hung on he was alive for a second time then ten days later things started to get worse a lot worse i was bleeding really badly no way could he make it this time but he did until saturday night at 7 o clock i was in the bath when i went really dizzy i couldnt move my eyes went eery and i couldnt speak i tried to shout out but no words came my husband was downstairs with my other son watching tv i managed to shout him (dont know how but i did) he came running upstairs and was so shocked that he froze on the spot i was white as a sheet and not moving (i thought i was going to die) he called my mum then an ambulance it happened so fast i could barely keep concious the pain was so bad i think i just kept passing out then i remember getting to hospital then that was it they called for the crash team and i thought my time was up the last thing i remember before they put me to sleep was saying to my mum that my baby boy wasnt goin to survive i just knew (mothers instinct) the part im goin to explain now was when i was out of it but it is my familys account of what happened i was in surgey for 4 and a half hours they delivered my boy and they couldnt get him going they tried for 16 mins the doctor was only young and he did try he was so upset my mum said it was like a bloodbath i had lost 2000mls (alot) and had numerous pints of blood put back they were all very panicky when they couldnt wake me up after 4 hours they were ready to put me in an induced coma and on life support this scares the hell out of me im crying writing this as it brings back so many scarey thoughts i DID wake up but my boy didnt he didnt even open his eyes i was then put on the high dependancy unit where they could keep an eye on me and make sure the bleeding had stopped inside i had tubes and needles in nearly every part of my body i also had a line in to my heart this scared me to death i could barely move then it happened they fetched my beautiful boy to me i was in shock i really was i can remember thinking this is not my baby he cant be dead but he was i kept touching him to wake him and also trying to keep him warm but it was no use hed gone my mum kept trying to tickle his hand because when you do this with a live baby they jump but he didnt we were all very much in shock couldnt believe it hoping that it wasnt happening to us that it was some kind of nightmare but it was real very real the nurses were good but i think its there job to be nice and they see it all the time we dont we were all very distressed but my family were brilliant and when i couldnt handle it they looked after my boy for me and took loads of pictures i soon came round because i realised that i only had a small amount of time with him before we had to let him go i left hospital after two days early i know but i had to come home i could hear all the babys crying and i could see them going home in their car seats it broke my heart it wasnt fair it should have been me with the flowers and balloons but all i had was a gaping hole and a massive void where my son should have been i was broken but i had to pull myself together for my two other kids i got at home it took a while but i did not until id burried my son at hemsworth cemetary and gave him a beautiful headstone all the family wanted to help and they really did they were wonderful i didnt have to lift a finger althogh when they went i did as much as possible because i couldnt stand living in my own head it took my mind off things for a while anyway i soon recovered body wise but my head is still all over the place i am pregnant again not to replace dillen but to hopefully add a bit of joy to my life this is only a small account of what happened it was very scarey and potentialy life threatening but i got through it and hope that i never go through this again or anyone for that matter it is awful to lose a child of any age and i have the deepest respect for anyone who has gone through anything like this but we are fighters and we have come out the other side except for our angels who are sadly not with us for the reason god only knows thank you for reading my story i know it is like many others on this site and i have the utmost respect for every one THANKYOU xxxxx
A BROKEN HEART
I have a broken heart,
That cannot be repaired.
Just knowing that I have it,
Makes me very, very scared.
╰⊰⊹☀ ❤ ☀⊹⊱╮
Broken hearts cannot be fixed,
Not now, not then, not ever.
There isn’t any way to cure it,
And, it never will get better.
╰⊰⊹☀ ❤ ☀⊹⊱╮
But just because it’s broken,
There’s no reason to cry.
I know is hurts real bad right now,
Because you had to say goodbye.
╰⊰⊹☀ ❤ ☀⊹⊱╮
You will come to live with it,
But some pain will always stay.
Since your loved one went to Heaven,
And broke your heart that day.
Copyrightⓒ2011 Vicki Hansen
http://www.vickihansen.wordpress.com/
hi my sweet darling angel sending all my hugs and kisses for you today on wot would have been your 3rd birthday i hope you had a party with all the angels in the sky and bounced on all the clouds we miss you more and more each and every day it gets no easier x
your mummy has moved to her new house so she can be closer to you but you already no that cause i no you look over us everyday x
i love you more than any words can say and on days like today you should be here with us but i no you are the brightest star in the sky and you will keep the dark nites light just for us xx
love you forever and forever in our hearts sleep tight little 1 xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Happy Birthday In Heaven - by Winnie Lovett
"Happy Birthday Dillen"
It's sure to be the best one yet,
Though you left us here behind.
Did you think that we'd forget?
Your cake this year, will surely be,
A beauty to behold.
With the icing made of Silver,
And the candles made of Gold.
Yes, your birthday in Heaven,
Will be such a grand affair.
And I know you'll look so lovely,
With a halo in your hair.
The Angels will come from everywhere,
To sing your birthday song.
And I know they'll be so happy,
That you've joined, God's Happy Throng.
No I can't send a card this year,
Or give a gift so fine.
So I'll just send a special prayer,
To that wonderful Son of yours.
Copyright of Winnie Lovett
Born Asleep - by Unknown Author
“Born Asleep" - such a beautiful phrase,
Always touches me to the core.
The broken cries of a Mother's heart
When it just can't take anymore.
I open my heart, one Mum to another,
So you never lose your hope,
That although it gets no easier,
I promise you'll learn to cope.
Remember your Angel is sleeping
In a world much kinder than ours
And will always be there to hold your hand
Even in your darkest hours.
My own little Angel will keep an eye,
And play with yours in their park.
But you must find your love and strength,
And feed your own little spark.
You'll never be alone my friend,
I will always understand.
If the tides loom up to swallow you,
Just reach out and grab my hand.
just to say hi baby keep those stars shining in the sky that way we no you are still there lookin down on us and lookin after us all i love you more than words can ever say night night sweet dreams my sweet darling angel xx
Precious Child by Karen Taylor Good
In my dreams, you are alive and well
Precious child, precious child
In my mind, I see you clear as a bell
Precious child, precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart, there is hope
'Cause you are with me still
In my heart, you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
In my plans, I was the first to leave
Precious child, precious child
But in this world, I was left here to grieve
Precious child, my precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart there is hope
And you are with me still
In my heart you live on
Always there, never gone
Precious child, you left too soon,
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
God knows I want to hold you,
See you, touch you
And maybe there's a heaven
And someday I will again
Please know you are not forgotten until then
In my heart you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
hello my darlin its been a while but im always here with you just thinking bout you and how you would be now all grown up big boy !! well kids are doin fine and kaidan is so big now i look at him and think of you and wish you were here with us xx i know we will meet again and up untill that time my heart is where you will always be my son love you lots and lots mummy goodnight ikkle man xx
they say it get easier as time goes on but to us it still feels the same as it did the day it happend you are our angel and i no you keep us safe sleep tight little 1 we love you more than any words can say xx
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